那瞬间，我遇见了他。

今天是1月1号 2010 年，真的觉得自己长大了，很多时候都会有自己的想法，不再是每天把‘随便’这两个字挂在嘴边。. 新的一年在一个很平静的夜晚度过，因为朋友的约会取消了，原本打算赴我家乡朋友的约， 但因不想让朋友在21岁生日失望，所以决定留在Kl 。

一个人静静地，没有人打扰，回想在这一年发生过的事，总觉得事情好像在昨晚发生那样，好也罢坏也罢，我想都是值得记在脑海中的，因为它让我生活有了起伏，它给了我开心的日子，当然少不了伤心的时刻，不再是平平淡淡的无聊人生。只不过，它也改变了我不想改变的事情。说巧吗？就在新的一年的前夕也就是昨晚，我们相遇了，同样的我身边依然不是他，但不同的是，他身边多了一个她。 相遇的心情有点感慨，缺少了当初的紧张，带着少许的妒忌，（妒忌我想是我依然是一个人而不是恋着他）打声招呼就各走各的！庆幸的是他还记得我曾占据了他生活的一小部分。就算再见面只能是一个再普通不过的朋友我也觉得开心。有时真的不能不相信命运，当它决定了就不会在改变，而你要改变都改变不了，就算一个很普通的相遇，你也无可避免！
真想知道一个人去到最悲的时候是如何，在最幸福的时候是如何!

在2009 真的发生了很多事，但我现在才察觉到。面对着离散，从新相聚，很多很多都让我很懊恼。环境真的能改变一个人，但我不想被环境给改变，我想做改变环境的那个人。。。但我想我也没这个本事~

其实还有很多东西想写，可是越写就越伤心，都是不写了，新的一年应该要高高兴兴的，好吧！许下我的新愿望咯！
希望：
我的家人朋友个个身体健康，
大家每天过得开开心心，
祝他幸福快乐每一天。。。。
最后希望我未来的路可以有个人陪我度过！

What kind of motivation you need?

Today having class just like normal but i felt more energetic. I was happy with that it is because i understand what the lecturer taught and what the tutor asked since i had been lost in the past few weeks...however, it just an understanding of what they trying to put in my mind but not discover by myself. Have to admit that it is a good motivation to put me forward and go further.(hope so).

The others things that i found is i was enjoyed with the discussion during the break time in old town. Through the discussion i realized that it is much more easier for me to understand by reading through the question among my members. Maybe i am not using my brain while i doing the question alone...or not concentrate or sleeping...haha...Why i din't realize in the past? hope such discussion will be continue having in the following period~~


So, what things will motivate you? have you?


Haiz...I am that kind of people don't like to use brain and make decision because it make me very suffer. unfortunately, the life not allow me to do so, for me it is Iblis.....actually i starting to make decision in the past, as you know a decision is very important for...., once you made wrong decision it will not just affect you own but others who stick with you also will be affected. Sometimes a decision is not necessary have to make by you, but others will waiting for your answer because they in used of it. i had experience most of the time and the feeling is not easy to describes so....i was wondering how i going to be...

Although i know making decision is very tiring but it also can gain some of the advantages... hopefully there will be someone or two or three or more haha sharing with me not only for the response of decision and also for the benefits. appreciate very much~~~

my loneliness day

Today is a weekend and i just stay at hostel doing nothing. my housemate all going bac their hometown except for my roommate. Today my house vry peaceful because nt ppl talking here and there, but it make me feel like very loneliness. i was start to thinking of my fren(hometown fren, kl fren), my family, my study, my career.....my future..

i started to think, think why the time passing so fast?

i was ady 20yrs,

i was ady is a diploma holder,

think i had been studies 1sem in advance diploma without gr5 especially jia wen..
she had helped me a lot in study. now without her i was lost sometimes, i have go through by myself sometime i really felt hard to continue...everything wan to deceide myself..but this is my decision and also wat i am insisted last time. i actually nt plan to continue advance. not wonder the time passed so fast...i dun even realised.

haiz...final coming soon loh. wan to prepare for it but before that, i wan to relax gou gou to award myself...

sadness....

Long time didn’t post already because my house still cannot assess internet.
Actually I was sad when starting my advance study. I found that there is very different compare to diploma last time, very time entered into class I can never find my friends although there still have some gp5 members with me. Our class changes from noisy to quiet, all student sat at their own place doing their own things, or chat with their “gang”. No more gossip at my class, because kah mun are not there, no more people walking around to kacau people, because I am dun know my new classmates, no more note for me to copy when I cannot follow up, because jia wen not same class with me. All like start over again, back to this first time I entered in diploma. And I know I have to get in used with this.
I really very appreciated have a lot of friends accompany me go through the diploma, so pity that I cannot even join your in study again but I promised I will try my best to take part in every gathering in future. I very envy some of the people enable to gather together in study, so I hope them can really appreciate it. Recently something was happen or change? I dun know, but I hope that will not affect our relationship ever and ever because it just a small matter and it is not worth.
Persistence is very importance to hold out our relationship. So gambateh all my friends.

Will $ trouble you ??

I was annoyed by the room problem in the passed few weeks. No one to be the volunteer even they know themselves will be moving out from this house after this month. Finally I am the so call “volunteer” who responsibility to rent out our room. Write notice, post it out but it makes me getting trouble since I got back the negative responds. Most of the tenants refuse to rent our room because there is not streamyx available. I keep post out the notice on 1st week, 2nd week, 3rd week and the 4th week is coming, but our room still can’t rent out! If I can’t rent out the room I need to cover double rental which is old room rental and new room rental. Beside, still have to pay for the deposit. I was thinking how to vomit this amount. Problem exit and again I have to settle it by myself. No people even bother it. luckily My friends explained and try to help me to solve it for me. (thanks my friends so shy lah..haha) How they can don’t care about it? Anywhere I have follow the way that my friends taught me, inform them the possibility of moving out if there is not tenant interest with my room in order to get back my rental deposit otherwise they have to bear the rental of my room. I felt guilty that time like I am very bad force them to move out but I have not choice. Finally today I rent out my room I was very glad with it because I not need to suffer about it again. Thanks god…

Today is the first time and also the last time I played badminton with group 5 members. I found that it was a very happy movement to gather with your even I joined in the left half an hour. I not going to gossip anyone here by right I just hope everyone of you think before you speak out, be careful with you words because you may hurt someone even through you just take it as a joke. Remember we are friends, not enemy…..

Actually I just fully understand why you always mention you are poor after the conversation today. Sorry for misunderstand you who ask you always bluff me?? Lay me kapal terbang somemore!!!!!! heng…
Nothing can help you because we are same class of people, just wan to said you are a good brother and I will help you add oil( mental)! Must always be happy even there is a lot of problem waiting you to be solved! gambateh^^…

again i am confuse

yesterday just back from utar campus, it was a very nice place, a very peaceful village i think is a good environment for study, but the important thing is having transport problem. there is a distance go to campus from the hostel and if don't have car really inconvenient. First time visit there, reach the time we are lost because the drive do not stop at the bus station and we cnnt find the bus station to take bus go into the campus. we force to take taxi to the hostel find my friend luckily my friend study there and bring us to campus. if not i think we have to spent some more time. again it show there is a transport problem. living place also is a problem, the rental for a month quite high for me, either RM255/RM275 per person for the hostel. if reant another place the security may not so good as my friend told me. and again it make me fluctuate...
have to consider start over again.
but there is one thing interested me, that is curry chicken bread, the famous food over there. very nice..

suprise!!!!!

juz went to dinner with my fren. i am go as usual came out from my house, take lif go down but there are something that suprising me!!! when the lif open i listen some voice coming from outside, it is a normal thing juz a couple playing there, but for me i was shock. i very nervous at that time. is him, why he will be here? his gal fren stay here? but why let me saw everything? isit notice me something? i know....is fate, let me know i actually lay down, let me know i was fine.....thanks!!