What kind of motivation you need?

Today having class just like normal but i felt more energetic. I was happy with that it is because i understand what the lecturer taught and what the tutor asked since i had been lost in the past few weeks...however, it just an understanding of what they trying to put in my mind but not discover by myself. Have to admit that it is a good motivation to put me forward and go further.(hope so).

The others things that i found is i was enjoyed with the discussion during the break time in old town. Through the discussion i realized that it is much more easier for me to understand by reading through the question among my members. Maybe i am not using my brain while i doing the question alone...or not concentrate or sleeping...haha...Why i din't realize in the past? hope such discussion will be continue having in the following period~~


So, what things will motivate you? have you?


Haiz...I am that kind of people don't like to use brain and make decision because it make me very suffer. unfortunately, the life not allow me to do so, for me it is Iblis.....actually i starting to make decision in the past, as you know a decision is very important for...., once you made wrong decision it will not just affect you own but others who stick with you also will be affected. Sometimes a decision is not necessary have to make by you, but others will waiting for your answer because they in used of it. i had experience most of the time and the feeling is not easy to describes so....i was wondering how i going to be...

Although i know making decision is very tiring but it also can gain some of the advantages... hopefully there will be someone or two or three or more haha sharing with me not only for the response of decision and also for the benefits. appreciate very much~~~

my loneliness day

Today is a weekend and i just stay at hostel doing nothing. my housemate all going bac their hometown except for my roommate. Today my house vry peaceful because nt ppl talking here and there, but it make me feel like very loneliness. i was start to thinking of my fren(hometown fren, kl fren), my family, my study, my career.....my future..

i started to think, think why the time passing so fast?

i was ady 20yrs,

i was ady is a diploma holder,

think i had been studies 1sem in advance diploma without gr5 especially jia wen..
she had helped me a lot in study. now without her i was lost sometimes, i have go through by myself sometime i really felt hard to continue...everything wan to deceide myself..but this is my decision and also wat i am insisted last time. i actually nt plan to continue advance. not wonder the time passed so fast...i dun even realised.

haiz...final coming soon loh. wan to prepare for it but before that, i wan to relax gou gou to award myself...

sadness....

Long time didn’t post already because my house still cannot assess internet.
Actually I was sad when starting my advance study. I found that there is very different compare to diploma last time, very time entered into class I can never find my friends although there still have some gp5 members with me. Our class changes from noisy to quiet, all student sat at their own place doing their own things, or chat with their “gang”. No more gossip at my class, because kah mun are not there, no more people walking around to kacau people, because I am dun know my new classmates, no more note for me to copy when I cannot follow up, because jia wen not same class with me. All like start over again, back to this first time I entered in diploma. And I know I have to get in used with this.
I really very appreciated have a lot of friends accompany me go through the diploma, so pity that I cannot even join your in study again but I promised I will try my best to take part in every gathering in future. I very envy some of the people enable to gather together in study, so I hope them can really appreciate it. Recently something was happen or change? I dun know, but I hope that will not affect our relationship ever and ever because it just a small matter and it is not worth.
Persistence is very importance to hold out our relationship. So gambateh all my friends.

Will $ trouble you ??

I was annoyed by the room problem in the passed few weeks. No one to be the volunteer even they know themselves will be moving out from this house after this month. Finally I am the so call “volunteer” who responsibility to rent out our room. Write notice, post it out but it makes me getting trouble since I got back the negative responds. Most of the tenants refuse to rent our room because there is not streamyx available. I keep post out the notice on 1st week, 2nd week, 3rd week and the 4th week is coming, but our room still can’t rent out! If I can’t rent out the room I need to cover double rental which is old room rental and new room rental. Beside, still have to pay for the deposit. I was thinking how to vomit this amount. Problem exit and again I have to settle it by myself. No people even bother it. luckily My friends explained and try to help me to solve it for me. (thanks my friends so shy lah..haha) How they can don’t care about it? Anywhere I have follow the way that my friends taught me, inform them the possibility of moving out if there is not tenant interest with my room in order to get back my rental deposit otherwise they have to bear the rental of my room. I felt guilty that time like I am very bad force them to move out but I have not choice. Finally today I rent out my room I was very glad with it because I not need to suffer about it again. Thanks god…

Today is the first time and also the last time I played badminton with group 5 members. I found that it was a very happy movement to gather with your even I joined in the left half an hour. I not going to gossip anyone here by right I just hope everyone of you think before you speak out, be careful with you words because you may hurt someone even through you just take it as a joke. Remember we are friends, not enemy…..

Actually I just fully understand why you always mention you are poor after the conversation today. Sorry for misunderstand you who ask you always bluff me?? Lay me kapal terbang somemore!!!!!! heng…
Nothing can help you because we are same class of people, just wan to said you are a good brother and I will help you add oil( mental)! Must always be happy even there is a lot of problem waiting you to be solved! gambateh^^…

again i am confuse

yesterday just back from utar campus, it was a very nice place, a very peaceful village i think is a good environment for study, but the important thing is having transport problem. there is a distance go to campus from the hostel and if don't have car really inconvenient. First time visit there, reach the time we are lost because the drive do not stop at the bus station and we cnnt find the bus station to take bus go into the campus. we force to take taxi to the hostel find my friend luckily my friend study there and bring us to campus. if not i think we have to spent some more time. again it show there is a transport problem. living place also is a problem, the rental for a month quite high for me, either RM255/RM275 per person for the hostel. if reant another place the security may not so good as my friend told me. and again it make me fluctuate...
have to consider start over again.
but there is one thing interested me, that is curry chicken bread, the famous food over there. very nice..

suprise!!!!!

juz went to dinner with my fren. i am go as usual came out from my house, take lif go down but there are something that suprising me!!! when the lif open i listen some voice coming from outside, it is a normal thing juz a couple playing there, but for me i was shock. i very nervous at that time. is him, why he will be here? his gal fren stay here? but why let me saw everything? isit notice me something? i know....is fate, let me know i actually lay down, let me know i was fine.....thanks!!

My ways

juz finish my 1st test today. quite sad to get a bad result, bt luckily it wont influent so much in my final result. hope next test will get better mark. nw was suffering wat title should i do for my assignment. sien~~~

Another thing is about my career. after few more week is the end of my diploma cause, it seem like passed vry fast. i need to decide wat way i should go. at the beginning was suffering either go advance aac or just stop study.
after listen to a few fren advised was consider to go degree, but the fees is higher then advance, i dun knw whether my family effort to support o nt...so will go utar look the environment first loh...
annoying lah..help!!!

载着愿望的孔明灯 vs 夜里的东禅寺….

小时候看见戏里的演员都会把自己的愿望写在孔明灯然后把它放开让它飞上天空去,相信这样愿望就能实现.虽然这没有医学根据, 也不知是否会实现, 但我都会很期待那一天我也能向他们一样把自己的愿望都写下, 至少写了会带给我一线希望, 这一天终于来了, 不过既然要等到我二十岁,嘿…

当我朋友告诉我的时候,我真的很兴奋, 我终于有机会尝试把自己的愿望放在高空中的感觉. 当时大家已把自己在新的一年里的愿望写在孔明灯上了后,大家就一起拿起它,直到火烧的热气膨胀到能让它飘在半空,我们才放手.当孔明灯越飞越高, 一种心安的感觉浮现在我心里, 似乎所有的愿望将能如愿以偿. 看着它在高空飘着, 我很疑惑到底他会飘去何处? 视线一直随着它飘动的方向…飘啊..飘的….惨!万一它落在别人的屋院, 哪我们的愿望就不能实现了咯, 而且别人看了可能还会取笑我们写下的愿望呢….不过如果愿望真的能实现的话, 让他们笑笑又何妨!!!

通过朋友的介绍, 东禅寺以前是一座小寺, 随着时间的过去慢慢扩建, 如今已经是马来西亚最大的一座寺庙. 它位于klang (jejaru), 在要求之下我很幸运的能参观到如此壮观的地方.

在夜里它更是让人惊叹不已, 如此美丽的寺庙夜景我还是第一次看见, 七彩兵分的小花登连接起来围绕着已被修剪成形的小树, 当中孔雀是全场的焦点之一, 其中还包括了龙头和各式各样的花..

此外, 花园里的棚也挂上乐五颜六色的小登, 用登制成的小树, 还有用玻璃制成的小寺真的让人叹为观止, 感觉就如身在四外桃源.

当然主角是一定不可以缺少的, 那就是神像. 寺庙里展示了不同的神像,(多得我也记不起来) 并且立了一个小石碑在每一座神像傍边省列的介绍每一个神明的由来, 让我这个井底之蛙受益不潜. 花灯游行看多了吧? 来看看真人饰演神像游行吧! 我觉得他们真的很辛苦,因为不能随心所欲的摆动, 要随时都保持同样的动作和表情,而且时不时要停下来让游客拍照. 寺里也提供一个小书斋, 里头全都是关于佛的教学,让人们更明白了解佛教.另外我还到许愿池许了今年的愿望,希望神真的能听得见我的愿望,可以早日实现我愿望…

在今年的牛年里, 牛也被视为主角之一,从远处就能看得见卡通版的牛大哥, 真的超可爱…真是热闹极了. 不但有看的, 里头还空出一些位子拍卖素食, 简直就是夜市场嘛! 只不过这个夜市场带给我很独特的回忆, 一个很美丽的夜晚, 让所有不开心的事通通烟飞云散…

now is 1.55am, at prima. i am so tired nw cos juz bac from outside. today have a nice day with my classmate. i vry appreciated that all of them came out eventhought they are vry tired due to the exam. i vry soli for to call them out bcos i scared there is nt more chance for us to gather together in the fututre. i was suffering a lot of things now. i had lost my way i dun even knw what i want...so nw i am blur...
i have not sleep well during this few days and think a lot of things, bt nt that matter, i was vry suprise that bcos i nt feel sad o wat when i knw about that it juz go normal. mayb i had put down it but i dun knw at the time. or i have nt really think about that before??? bt the feeling is true at the time..icnnt escape it!! haiz...wat i wan??
i dun knw wat i wanna to say but for nw i am fine.
new year must have new resolution as my classmate said...
so i hope that i can smoothly go through my diploma..other matter only consider later.